Diary Entry 23rd Sept 2009
Stevens been making such an effort since he came back from France, he must have really missed me. He made me breakfast in bed yesterday and today he met me for lunch, he was saying “I really don't know what I would do with out you.” I don’t know what came over him. He continued by saying “I know sometimes I’ve taken you for granted and I really want to make up for it.” When I asked him why the sudden change he said (and I quote). “Because I love you, with all my heart.” He then continued to say. “It’s amazing how we see other couples and assume that their relationship’s perfect, when in actual fact 97% of the time they're far from it.” He got to telling me about his weekend away. He said when he was in France a colleague was telling him that he was going through a messy divorce and that the women was literally bleeding him for every penny he had. Another colleague told him that he caught his wife of three mounts cheating. But because he had cheated on her in the past and she takes good care of home he’s willing to ignore it ever happened – she doesn’t even know he knows. Could you imagine his pain every time she leaves the house all dolled up, knowing she’s about to run into the arms of another?! (Tragic – Steven can NEVER find out.) Not to mention Steven also said one of his bosses constantly goes to strip clubs, sleeps around with all sorts, and is a right womanizer! And this is all because he’s scared of getting old and being abandoned - such a shame. Steven said by the time his visit was over his head was spinning, it caused him to look at our relationship, and it made him realised that what we have is special - in comparison. He said from that moment on he promises to never take me for granted again. So I suppose by that he means he’s not gonna be so demanding, selfish and boring anymore.
I must admit I do like the change in him; it reminds me of when we first got together. I don't know how long it’s gonna last though - it’s not the first time his had an epiphany. We’ll see how it goes, I do prefer this side to Steven, I enjoy feeling appreciated, special, and loved. It’s nice.
Gosh I’m so confused right now – what am I going to do about Carl?? He wanted to see me again this weekend and I was to tell Steven I was going out with the girls if he asks. The thing is Steven arranged today for us to go to a health farm, I know I can cancel Carl he won’t mind, but it looks as though I may have to hang Carl up (possibly) for good - anyway I’m not gonna dwell – it’s all early days yet.
Anyway must dash, hubby is out the bath now, I must go hump.
