Diary Entry 30th Sept 2009
You know what. I’m happy. I haven’t been this happy in mouths – mouths I tell you. But you know what? I feel as though I want more, somethings missing. I don’t know if it’s because I know there’s more out there....just waiting, or is it because my life's just become routine. Either way Carl seems to understand where I'm coming from. We were speaking on the phone a lot yesterday, y'know just about things we want and don’t want, love, friends and that sort of stuff. And it just so happens that Carl and I have a lot in common, I enjoyed speaking to him. Steven and I are cool too. He’s still treating me like a queen and I love his efforts and all the attention he's showing me, I really do. And I love him, I love him dearly.
I realise now that this isn't about Steven at all, it's definitely about me. And you know what? I just wanna shag the living shit out of Carl. He has such a magnetic energy and i'm soooooo attracted to him.
We've arranged to meet on Friday before Steven and I go away to our weekend spa appointment, I'm so looking forward to seeing him again. I suppose this is just one of those times when I could do with....a new friend. ;)
Mmmm, night diary. x
