I like him. It’s weird I know, but I do like him. I know I shouldn't’t go around falling for my boyfriend’s friend, but Carl 's hot. At times I catch him looking at me, I can tell he likes me too....but his got a girlfriend anyway so this is just stupid.
Why can’t stop thinking about him? I’ve only known him a month and every time he comes around I just don’t want him to leave, he’s so much fun to be around.
Steven (my boyfriend) and Carl have been friends for years, but I’ve only recently met Carl. He was living in London for a long time so I hadn’t the chance to meet him before now - but I heard a lot about him. Since meeting Carl, Steven in comparison has become a bore, yes he still buys me anything I want and gives me bed time head, but other then that the excitement's dead!! He rarely makes me laugh and he hardly ever takes me out; all he does is work and sleep, work and sleep.
The other day Carl and I went for a drink, I saw him in town while I was out buying Steven a tie for this business meeting he has in France next week, we had a right laugh. The chemistry was immense, we talked about absolutely everything, from relationships to work, money and children, I haven’t had that much attention for a long while....you know, just one on one. I felt so drawn to him and I'm still trying to work out if it’s because he makes me laugh, I know he's good looking, or horror of horror is just because I know he's Stevens’s friend! Surly I’m not a closet slut! Hmmm.
Maybe I'm being harsh. OK, Steven's a nice guy - I suppose. He looks after me, my father was really proud to finally see me with a hard working man for a change, but....but...he’s become dull. How do I tell him that I’m beginning to feel pushed aside/neglected/ignored/bored.
What the hell!! After seeing Carl last week all I cant think about is him. Hugging me goodbye he held me for a few seconds longer then a normal 'friendly' goodbye hug - the only bleeding thing missing was a big sloppy wet kiss...., what am I gonna do?? I love Steven really I do....but there's something about Carl.
OMG!! I might just have to....
